Some days raising boys, being a wife, working and everything that comes with all three of those different titles just makes me want to grab the whiskey, remote, blanket, and suck the world night-night. Seems lately there are more of those days than not.... BUT .... and this is the interrupt your thoughts kind of but... then I realize there is magic even if the most difficult and challenging of circumstances.
For example, little man Z, who is not little, had the roughest day in months, years in fact, today. He felt the world was crashing down upon him and that everyone was against him. Through it I was able to connect with him, make him smile just a little, and get him talking. And his heart returned to normal.
Don's C has caused so many issues and disruptions around the house, and in our marriage, but because we were letting him create the rules and run the show. Tonight I reminded him that he wouldn't have his friends, this community, this life if it weren't for Z and me. That if he wants things good his games will stop, and he'll play by the rules as set between his Dad and me. I don't think this will last long, but in the end it is a battle worth fighting until the fight is literally knocked out of me.
There is so much happening and so much to be thankful for, but the Devil lives in the crevices of the world around us constantly grabbing our ankles as we wander past and through. It is how we shed ourselves of his intrusions. How we control our responses to the drama. I am far from a perfect example of how to make this happen each and every day. I don't know anyone that is a great example as a whole human being. But that is why God created a multitude of people and experiences to come in and sometimes out of our lives. It is through each experience, each interaction, that we walk away with more knowledge and power on how to beat the Devil himself, or how to succumb to his dastardly ways. In the end I know I will "win" the Devil's game and beat him despite the rough and exhausting journey. It is here that the greatest rewards are received... never give up, never give in, and never ever lose your spirit (or sense of humor).
Exhausted, unmotivated, but still alive and kicking the Devil in the teeth each and every day.
Thank you friends, family, and all the support people in our lives for making each day rich.
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